Saudade (Portuguese): The feeling of longing for someone that you love and is lost. Another linguist describes it as a "vague and constant desire for something that does not and probably cannot exist."

"when you close your eyes... it is only you".  

the agony of being alone, being not the one for him... or anyone at all. that is the draw. that is the point. the love i share is for and with everyone. i need to understand that his love is the same. we just happen to meet on the same page every so often.

inspired by his love for me... for us. the longing of being completely and utterly so far away from the future. it is what i deserve. 

give me just one more chance. i promise i won't make a mess of it this time around.