It's being reliable that is the issue. 

I think what is bothering you.. Is that you are being relied upon. I don't like being relied upon.. It hinders me, sucks me dry of the love and hope that I bring to others. It cages me inside a box; creates a creature that I do not understand. Instead I want others to understand that one can only rely on themselves. You can not hold humankind to your standards. It is only once they learn that relying on themselves is the answer... Will they find joy in knowing that others are not available.