thoughts. everything is about to be new. i am ready. i would imagine that this is how dying feels. except i'm filled with the excitement from joy of the detour. it gave me extra time. to see friends and family. i needed to learn a few more things before i left this island. this place of childhood. i'm walking away from it now... i'm so thankful the sun is out. it makes the air feel clean and revitalizing. i sat on the deck today to meditate. quickly... not much time. i'll miss this, but the sun will follow me where ever i go.
only hours left. i'm feeling overwhelmed with clothing. i love clothes. a little too much... they are just merely material, but i see so much potential in each one now that it is time to eliminate. i see use for it in california, i hope anyway. i'll learn to pack light later, maybe i'll just sell everything. this is the life that i chose. i chose to have this freedom to pack a bag (ha several bags) and leave. this is really the beginning of something new... not the end at all.
im saving my emotion and energy now. i must stay calm for a few weeks and just take all of this in. the land. the country. the music. the love. spreading the love. then when i get to california i want to learn. learn until i just have to sleep for a few days. take it all in. i need to hear piano music soon. from a human that is with me. you get just one day at a time.