"Can you teach me how to dance ... real slow".
Thirteen hours across the flat and open fields, the piece of America that is still unoccupied. The land generates wind power... Their majestic silhouettes grace the curves of central Kansas. It's a beautiful day, feels like spring. It's brighter out here, the air is clean and simple. I imagine the small population is as well. I found my dream plantation home out there... Acres of green grass, trees and a few old barns. Perhaps I wish to raise all six children in the middle of an innocent land, one where I can enhance their isolation; it makes for an imaginative mind. I want to put brilliance out into this world.. It must be the responsibility of someone, our world is struggling. Frantically searching for a great mind. One that will make all the difference.
Dreams-the chance to step out of reality and see color and light. Unfortunately not everyone can see. For I once was lost... But now I am found.
I can imagine a bit of an outcome now. One that is a new world. A new place in time... A new career. I have big plans for my life now. It's a now or never kinda thing. At twenty five.. I am now leaving my home to make a name for myself... Change a life... Build an empire. It just takes a few of the greatest minds to combine... Become a family and then they can be something. Something that is what everyone needs.
The past few days have been a roller coaster of emotion. A lot of spontaneous gestures.. I'm a slow changing chameleon. Nonetheless I adjust. I guess it comes from years of siblings... Sisters even. Quite an accomplishment to survive that childhood. The hormones and rage.. The love and beauty. I have become inspired from leaving everything that I adore...
The west coast will be an unexpected moment, when I do actually arrive. The sun will shine, the opportunities loom. Tea party with my Ali cat, maybe even a sushi date. I need to focus on me.. My crazy/fantastical life.. It's not anyone's business but my own. He will recognize me one day, from across a very large and dark room. I pray sooner than later... But I doubt. Until then I have a few songs that remind me of his voice. And dreams to remember our bodies together. Why does it always come back to this? Why is it that we just need to be held? To be needed? "Crash into me". DMB