it's only natural that the day would feel so.. bland.
you have to balance the scales. once something so emotional, so wonderful and amazing takes place... this day of nothingness seems too.. plain.
i wouldn't have it any other way. i needed the day to remember & absorb all the light that was placed inside. like a jar of fireflies... the following morning, they have all died.
its all a dream anyhow. i don't know if he was just a mirage... or an actual human.
i have no proof of his existence, yet i choose to believe.
i choose to have faith in his love for me.
this is how i keep treading the endless waters that is life.
one day at a time. save the imagination for later. now i need to rest and prepare for what is to come. being in love is exhausting, but i wished for this. my year is moving right along, almost just as planned.