love not the world or lust after it's desires. but because you love the father... you can love the world.
1 John 2:15
[ On Not Loving the World ] Do not love the world or anything in the world. If anyone loves the world, love for the Father is not in them.
and then i found this, and it explains a few feelings. i am done with my self pity party now. tomorrow is new. i smile again.
If you belonged to the world, it would love you as its own. As it is, you do not belong to the world, but I have chosen you out of the world. That is why the world hates you.